Hey, friends. So, to most of you, this book might seem familiar, and that’s because I mentioned this book in my “Planned” Book Haul, and I mentioned that it was a poetry book written in four parts. I started this book today, and finished it today, and I couldn’t stop trying to find out either what happened next, or if the author/narrator would ever be happy again.
So, for those of you that have never heard of this book before (don’t worry, I didn’t either.) it’s a collection of the author’s poetry divided into four parts: the princess, the damsel, the queen, and you.
If you think that think this is a fairy tale, it’s not. The first part – “the princess” – about the author and how she seemed to feel trapped in a body that didn’t seem to be her own, much like a princess would be trapped in a tower. She speaks of dealing with an ED, and her mother being an alcoholic and telling her that she needs to lose some weight, and how the people at her school would talk about her. She mentions in this part how ironic it is that as soon as she got skinny, even though she didn’t look good, people would start friend requesting her, despite how mean they were to her in the past.
“friend request from ………”
a) the girl who said you were ugly.
b) the girl who said your voice was off-key.
c) the girl who refused to defend you.
d) the girl who laughed at you behind your back & to your face.
e) the girl who took your lunch money every day because she said you didn’t need to eat.
f) the girl who said you were “fat” even after you starved yourself to death.
g) the girl who was supposed to be your best friend.
h) all the above.
-keep pressing ignore, lovely.”
In the second part – “the damsel” – is the part of her life where she deals with most of her hardships. So many deaths occur in her family, and though she wasn’t always particularly fond of some of the people who died, she depresses herself by thinking of all of the things in her life these people will miss, like her college graduation and her first love. In this part she also speaks of a failed relationship with a boy who seemed to be cheating on her. At this point in the traditional fairy tale, the princess would look longingly out her bedroom window and hope that a handsome prince would come to whisk her away from all the pain, and make everything better again.
“you may not have left (many) bruises on my skin, but you left giant blackberry bruises all over my soul. – i still wonder who i would have been.”
The third part, “the queen”, the author realizes that she doesn’t need anyone to save her, and that she needs to be a bigger self-advocate for herself. She essentially dumps her boyfriend, saying that getting the bad out of her life will make way for the good, and actually meets a new man. She explains how she’s turning her life around, trying to show that she isn’t broken after all the bad that’s happened to her, and gushes about how well her new man treats her. She speaks of the kind of love most people dream of ever having, and rarely ever get. She asks him to accept her for all of her flaws, and to not leave her when things got tough, and it’s obvious how much she loves him from the way she describes him in this part.
“once upon a time, the princess rose from the ashes her dragon lovers made of her & crowned herself the mother-fucking queen of herself. – how’s that for a happily ever after?”
The final part, “you”, addresses us directly. It tells us to never let someone dictate the way your life is going to go, or let someone hurt you to the point where they’re controlling you. She talks about the life of millennials in general, and talks about acceptance and respect for people in all situations, no matter their financial standing, sexuality, occupation…this is the part the reading takes in and uses in their day-to-day life.
“the only thing
– period, end of story.”
This isn’t really the kind of book you can rate for many reasons. It’s not a story, don’t expect a plot, a setting, a resolution, and I’m not saying that it’s good. I mean, this is a really ugly book about life and that’s just the truth.
I did give this book four stars on Goodreads, because…why?
That’s just what this book does to you. Do you know how to react, really? No, but your body and mind somehow work together to form something of an opinion.
Even I don’t know my opinion.
Read this book, don’t read this book…whichever you prefer. It’s a poetry book, so you could probably fly through it in about an hour and a half, but just don’t let the length of the book and the simplicity of being able to skim through this book in less than a day make you completely disregard its meaning in your life, and the thoughts you have surrounding it.
Yellow Eccentricity ❤